Dear Diary:
Mood: Apathetic.
My life is spiralling downward. I couldn't get enough money to go to the Blood Red Romance and Suffocate me dry concert. It sucks 'cause they play some of my favorite songs like 'Stab My Heart Because I Love You' and 'Rip Apart My Soul' and of course, 'Stabby Rip Stab Stab'. And it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair to do that flippy thingy. Like that guy from that band can do. Some days, you know...
I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be
You'd be non-conforming too if you looked just like me
I have paint on my nails and make-up on my face
I'm almost emo enough to start shaving my legs
'Cause I feel real deep when I'm dressing in drag
I call it freedom of expression, most just call me a fag
'Cause our dudes look like chicks, and our chicks look like dykes
'Cause emo is one step below transvestite!
Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
I must be emo
I'm dark, and sensetive with low self-esteem
The way I dress makes every day feel like Halloween
I have no real problems but I like to make believe
I stole my sister's mascara now I'm grounded for a week
Sulking and writing poetry are my hobbies
I can't get through a Hawthorne Heights album without sobbing
Girls keep breaking up with me, it's never any fun
They say they already have a pussy, they don't need another one
Stop my breathing and slit my throat
I must be emo
I don't jump around when I go to shows
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I must be emo
Dye in my hair and polish on my toes
I must be emo
I play guitar and write suicide notes
I must be emo
My life is just a black abyss, you know, it's so dark. And it's suffocating me. Grabbing ahold of me and tightening its grip, tighter than a pair of my little sister's jeans... which look great on my by the way.
When I get depressed I cut my wrists in every direction
Hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection
I write in a live journal and wear thick rimmed glasses
I told my friends I bleed black and cry during classes
I'm just a bad, cheap imitation of goth
You can read me "Catcher in the Rye," and watch me jack off
I wear skin tight clothes while hating my life
If I said I like girls, I'd only be half right!
I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo
I must be emo
Screw XBox, I play old school Nintendo
I must be emo
I like to whine and hate my parentals
I must be emo
Me and my friends all look like clones
I must be E-Mo
My parents just don't get me, you know. They think I'm gay just because they saw me kiss a guy. Well, a couple guys. But I mean, it's the 2000s. Can't 2... or 4 dudes make-out with each other without being gay? I mean, chicks dig that kind of thing anyways. I don't know diary, sometimes I think you're the only one that gets me, you're my best friend...
I feel like tacos
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
R.I.P Paul Gray
I still can't believe it..Paul Gray died...He will live on in our and the members of Slipknot's hearts. I looked up to you so much 
, you were my idol. Rock on in heaven dude...rock on in heaven! I'm completely devastated by this loss 
...and still can't believe it happened....I wonder who they'll find to replace him.... 
, you were my idol. Rock on in heaven dude...rock on in heaven! I'm completely devastated by this loss 
...and still can't believe it happened....I wonder who they'll find to replace him.... 
Friday, April 30, 2010
R.I.P - Sebastian Michaelis
Recently a freind of mine committed suicide. This is just a (R.I.P) Section where people can pay their respects. So if you're reading this please feel free to pay your respects, in a comment or in person.
Sebastian is and always will be a loving and kind-hearted 18 year-old, who is funny, comedic, and has a Great sense of humor. Sebastian has a passion for all things goth. He will always be cherished by the people who knew him well.
Sebastian will be remembered in our hearts; the love that he shared to his family and friends will never be forgotten because he had shared his heart for those who have been around him. He loved so many things including his beloved lighter, posters and his Final Fantasy video games, but most of all the people he cared for.
To those around him can say that he is a great friend, son, brother, cousin, grandson. And he will be missed dearly.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Tonight, Even if you can't see the moon (Bleach Movie Fade to Black Theme song)
Vocals: Porno Graffiti
Lyrics: Shindo Haruichi
Composition: Okano Akihito
Tonight, where does the moon shine on? From the sky covered in thick clouds
Tonight, who are you embraced by? Are you going to cry alone in the rain?
If you’re ashamed of yourself for thinking that you can share everything and having anticipated so
Then with a Dazai in your hand, you get onto the roof and show this world that you’re worried
You got yourself when you spat into the sky
Even though you want to pretend to be a traveler, you hate stray paths and detours
So under the roof braving the storm, you look at the world through Google Search
The words of love won’t reach you
Tonight, where does the moon shine on? From the sky covered in thick clouds
Tonight, who are you embraced by? Are you going to cry alone in the rain?
The bravado and vanity you clung onto showed their faces even in your love affairs
And even grasping your released hand was made into a very hard thing
Even though you knew we won’t be able to meet anymore
Tonight, if you can’t see the moon, then let’s wait earnestly for the breaks in the clouds
Tonight, I wonder if you can see the moon in the sky that you looked up at
I’m fine with aiming for the wilderness; I want to see a flawless light
You find yourself and your true identity terrible
You lied that it’s pointless, had a face that seemed to know just about everything
Hid yourself who can’t do anything, and lost the truth
If you’re trying to see invisible things, it’s good enough that you only shut your eyes
Even if you’re not here, even if you can’t see the moon tonight
Lyrics: Shindo Haruichi
Composition: Okano Akihito
Tonight, where does the moon shine on? From the sky covered in thick clouds
Tonight, who are you embraced by? Are you going to cry alone in the rain?
If you’re ashamed of yourself for thinking that you can share everything and having anticipated so
Then with a Dazai in your hand, you get onto the roof and show this world that you’re worried
You got yourself when you spat into the sky
Even though you want to pretend to be a traveler, you hate stray paths and detours
So under the roof braving the storm, you look at the world through Google Search
The words of love won’t reach you
Tonight, where does the moon shine on? From the sky covered in thick clouds
Tonight, who are you embraced by? Are you going to cry alone in the rain?
The bravado and vanity you clung onto showed their faces even in your love affairs
And even grasping your released hand was made into a very hard thing
Even though you knew we won’t be able to meet anymore
Tonight, if you can’t see the moon, then let’s wait earnestly for the breaks in the clouds
Tonight, I wonder if you can see the moon in the sky that you looked up at
I’m fine with aiming for the wilderness; I want to see a flawless light
You find yourself and your true identity terrible
You lied that it’s pointless, had a face that seemed to know just about everything
Hid yourself who can’t do anything, and lost the truth
If you’re trying to see invisible things, it’s good enough that you only shut your eyes
Even if you’re not here, even if you can’t see the moon tonight
Daughter Of Evil (Direct Translation)
Vocals: Kagamine Rin
Lyrics: mothy (Aku noP)
Composition: mothy (Aku noP)
Arrangement: mothy (Aku noP)
Once upon a time, in a land far, far away
There was a Princess of age fourteen
Who reigned from the top
Of a cruel and despotic kingdom
Gorgeously and luxuriously furnished
She had a servant with a face very similar to hers
Her pet horse’s name was Joséphine
All and everything belonged to her
If I didn’t have enough money
I’d extort it from the foolish people
I’d eliminate
Those who disobeyed me
“Now, now, you may kneel before me!”
The flower of evil blooms so prettily
With vivid colors
The poor weeds surrounding it
Ah, become its nourishment and wilt away
The tyrant princess fell in love
With a man in blue across the sea
But he only had eyes for a lady in green
From the neighboring kingdom
Mad with jealousy, the Princess
Summoned her court members one day
And with a quiet voice, she said,
“You may annihilate the kingdom in green”
Many homes were burnt down
Many lives were lost
The lament of the suffering people
Couldn’t reach the princess
“Oh my, it’s snack time”
The flower of evil blooms so prettily
With crazy colors
Even though it’s a very beautiful flower
Ah, it has too many thorns, so it’s untouchable
To be able to overthrow the evil princess
People finally rose up
A female swordsman in red armor
Led the mobs of those folks
The pent-up anger
Enclosed the entire kingdom
The soldiers, tired by the years of war,
Were no match for it
The palace was finally surrounded
And her vassals fled
The lovely and pretty Princess
Was finally captured
“You insolent fools!”
The flower of evil blooms so prettily
With doleful colors
The paradise for her
Ah, crumbles so easily like a house of cards
Once upon a time, in a land far, far away
There was a Princess of age fourteen
Who once reigned from the top
Of a cruel and despotic kingdom
The time of execution was three o’clock in the afternoon
When the church bells tolled
What did the person who was called a princess
Think in her prison cell alone?
Finally the time had come
And the bells tolled, announcing the end
Without any regard for the public crowds
-She- said this:
“Oh my, it’s snack time”
The flower of evil falls apart so prettily
With vivid colors
Afterwards, people said this:
Ah, she was truly a daughter of evil
Lyrics: mothy (Aku noP)
Composition: mothy (Aku noP)
Arrangement: mothy (Aku noP)
Once upon a time, in a land far, far away
There was a Princess of age fourteen
Who reigned from the top
Of a cruel and despotic kingdom
Gorgeously and luxuriously furnished
She had a servant with a face very similar to hers
Her pet horse’s name was Joséphine
All and everything belonged to her
If I didn’t have enough money
I’d extort it from the foolish people
I’d eliminate
Those who disobeyed me
“Now, now, you may kneel before me!”
The flower of evil blooms so prettily
With vivid colors
The poor weeds surrounding it
Ah, become its nourishment and wilt away
The tyrant princess fell in love
With a man in blue across the sea
But he only had eyes for a lady in green
From the neighboring kingdom
Mad with jealousy, the Princess
Summoned her court members one day
And with a quiet voice, she said,
“You may annihilate the kingdom in green”
Many homes were burnt down
Many lives were lost
The lament of the suffering people
Couldn’t reach the princess
“Oh my, it’s snack time”
The flower of evil blooms so prettily
With crazy colors
Even though it’s a very beautiful flower
Ah, it has too many thorns, so it’s untouchable
To be able to overthrow the evil princess
People finally rose up
A female swordsman in red armor
Led the mobs of those folks
The pent-up anger
Enclosed the entire kingdom
The soldiers, tired by the years of war,
Were no match for it
The palace was finally surrounded
And her vassals fled
The lovely and pretty Princess
Was finally captured
“You insolent fools!”
The flower of evil blooms so prettily
With doleful colors
The paradise for her
Ah, crumbles so easily like a house of cards
Once upon a time, in a land far, far away
There was a Princess of age fourteen
Who once reigned from the top
Of a cruel and despotic kingdom
The time of execution was three o’clock in the afternoon
When the church bells tolled
What did the person who was called a princess
Think in her prison cell alone?
Finally the time had come
And the bells tolled, announcing the end
Without any regard for the public crowds
-She- said this:
“Oh my, it’s snack time”
The flower of evil falls apart so prettily
With vivid colors
Afterwards, people said this:
Ah, she was truly a daughter of evil
Friday, March 26, 2010
Under Her Dark Veil
Under her dark veil she wrung her hands.
"Why are you so pale today?"
"Because I made him drink of stinging grief
Until he got drunk on it.
How can I forget? He staggered out,
His mouth twisted in agony.
I ran down not touching the bannister
And caught up with him at the gate.
I cried: 'A joke!
That's all it was. If you leave, I'll die.'
He smiled calmly and grimly
And told me: 'Don't stand here in the wind.' "
"Why are you so pale today?"
"Because I made him drink of stinging grief
Until he got drunk on it.
How can I forget? He staggered out,
His mouth twisted in agony.
I ran down not touching the bannister
And caught up with him at the gate.
I cried: 'A joke!
That's all it was. If you leave, I'll die.'
He smiled calmly and grimly
And told me: 'Don't stand here in the wind.' "
Shall I?
Shall I?
Shall I act surprised?
Shall I be in shock?
Shall I act like twas unexpected?
Act as though twasn't on stock?
I knew he would reject me...
I knew he'd turn me down....
I knew he'd embarrass me...
I knew it'd end with a frown.
I'm not surprised a all
Not in the least way
I knew this "love" would fall
And end in tears by the end of day
I know I took a chance
I told him how I felt
It was "love" at first glance
But ending, on one knee I knelt
I revealed my true feelings
Feelings I need not share
And now there is no healing
From that awkward stare
Shall I act surprised?
Shall I be in shock?
Shall I act like twas unexpected?
Act as though twasn't on stock?
I knew he would reject me...
I knew he'd turn me down....
I knew he'd embarrass me...
I knew it'd end with a frown.
I'm not surprised a all
Not in the least way
I knew this "love" would fall
And end in tears by the end of day
I know I took a chance
I told him how I felt
It was "love" at first glance
But ending, on one knee I knelt
I revealed my true feelings
Feelings I need not share
And now there is no healing
From that awkward stare
Everything's Changed
Lost on the way, no one to blame, no one to say
nothing to do with the way everything’s changed.
So I feel a little like, a child who’s lost, a little like
(everything’s changed) a lot, I didn’t like all of the pain.
I’m confused, a lot of it, is hard to take, an cause of it,
everything’s changed. I thought I’d make it through the pain,
everything’s changed.
Given the chance I would happily dance on the grave of the one
who shows no remorse.
So I feel a little like, a child who’s lost, a little like,
(everything’s changed) a lot, I didn’t like all of the pain, everything’s changed
I’m confused, a lot of it, is hard to take and cause of it
everything’s changed. I thought I’d make it
through the pain everything’s change
nothing is plain, nothing can be explained, nothing.
Given the chance I would happily laugh and be free to
express what I feel.
Given the chance I could hold up my
head and smile again…
nothing to do with the way everything’s changed.
So I feel a little like, a child who’s lost, a little like
(everything’s changed) a lot, I didn’t like all of the pain.
I’m confused, a lot of it, is hard to take, an cause of it,
everything’s changed. I thought I’d make it through the pain,
everything’s changed.
Given the chance I would happily dance on the grave of the one
who shows no remorse.
So I feel a little like, a child who’s lost, a little like,
(everything’s changed) a lot, I didn’t like all of the pain, everything’s changed
I’m confused, a lot of it, is hard to take and cause of it
everything’s changed. I thought I’d make it
through the pain everything’s change
nothing is plain, nothing can be explained, nothing.
Given the chance I would happily laugh and be free to
express what I feel.
Given the chance I could hold up my
head and smile again…
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
My New Template
Hello all! And welcome back to my newly redecorated blog! I spent alot of time trying to get the template just perfect for this blog and I'm happy I have found the right one! I would appreciate it if you, my dear readers left your opinions/ comments on my newest templates! Tell me if I should change it, and if so what to! Please and thank you!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Being Sick
It sucks, it keeps you from school work, and its a virus? Give up?! Its the stomach flu! And I have it! And as if that's not bad enough.....I couldn't stay home to recuperate and get better because I have school work....that and my mother had something that she needed me to print out...
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